Living Life With No Regrets

Getting tired is one of human's weaknesses. We all get tired, physically, mentally, even emotionally. We get tired of doing the same things, we get tired of thinking about so many things, we get tired of feeling the same things and sometimes the best way to keep ourselves from getting tired is to rest. The easiest way to finally get away from all the stress these weaknesses gives you, the fastest way to find peace in your mind, body and soul. As a human being, I do get tired a lot. Often would I want to just rest when I get home, often would I just want to lie down my bed, close my eyes and forget about everything that happens around me. Sometimes, I'd even want to fall into a deep sleep and just wake up when I feel like it. Unfortunately, I'll have to wake up everytime because there are things that I needed to do, to finish. It's way so sad when people actually get tired, especially when they're getting tired of loving you, getting tired of feeling something fo...

Lately, I'v had so many realizations about life, about why things happened, and how things turned out this way and I think it is all for the better.  I remember how my mom always say, "God takes away the things that keep you from giving time to Him." and only now did I realize that.When it was so late. I can't blame God for doing so, because I know it was my fault. It really did took all my time from giving Him time that was supposed for Him and actually forgot about Him and focused on the thing that gave me "happiness" and "love." Suffering from the pain, I kept asking Him "Why?" Why does it always have to be me? Why am I the only one suffering, why am I the one always hurting? And all these were consequences of the things I did wrong. Oh, why don't I ever learn?!  Right now, I am trying my best to move forward as the new year approaches. Starting over will never be easily, but I know that I can do it for it is God who gives m...

Happy New Year! Made a cover of Taylor Swift's Breathe. Last cover for the year! :)

It's been a month since I was heart broken, and I feel a lot more better now. But I will not be talking a lot about it in this post but everything will be about STRENGTH. Yes, strength that comes from the Lord. Lately, I've been reading my devotions again and it would always hit me, bull's eye. Everything was about "waiting" "timing" "failures" and everything related and it honestly opened up my yes to the things I always neglected, the things I always set aside. And in each day that passed, God has given me the strength, the hope and the courage to stand on my feet, lift my head high again and move on. I am so thankful for the strength I have right now, and that He never fails to show and reveal who He is, to me. After receiving news about "it" today, I felt a little pain. I thought I would be bursting out to tears. I felt chills, I felt sad, I felt my heart rip off, but it's surprising that I did not even shed a tear. Maybe ...

Almost been a week and I can say I'm not totally okay yet, but I think I'm a little better. Thanks to my friends who'd always try to do silly things to make laugh, my parents who would spoil me and let me do what I want to do these past few days and of course to God, who constantly reminds me of a lot of things through devotionals. Pain is still inside me but they're tolerable now and I think God actually did a miracle for making me feel less of the pain this fast. THANK YOU, LORD! I am really amazed how everything went so fine this time. I remember crying for months the last time I got my heart broken, but now, it has lessened as if everything happened years ago. I feel stronger and more mature now. Though there are still a lot of things I want to know, things I want to understand more and things I want to clear, I think there are things that are always better off unsaid. What's important is that you did everything you can to save the relationship, and the best p...

Here I go again. Im sorry. I've been really depressed lately, that I do not know what to do anymore. For the first time after a long time, I felt how it is to love, be loved and to be hurt again and I never actually saw this coming. Just when I thought everything was going perfectly as it should be, everything eventually became so wrong that I do not know how to fix the mess that happened anymore. I felt so helpless, so hopeless. I felt like everything is coming right at me, without the plan of just letting me go, but hitting me from head to toe till I fall down on the ground. They say history repeats itself, and I think it's happening to me right now, for the second time around. When will I ever learn? Giving your love to someone is not easy because being in a commitment means giving your trust, your time, you effort, your love to your partner. It maybe so complicated, but it's part of it. There is nothing in this world that is not complicated. May it be your relation...

Been too much depressed for almost 2 weeks now and I seriously don't know what to do anymore. I wanted to let go of all the feelings I have and just.. die. But I can't, of course. Cause I do not know how to kill myself and I know it's so illogical to do. So, I decided to just write and write and write until every little pain in me gets out. Because of depression, I seriously have no appetite for the past weeks and a lot of people are saying that I've become more thin (omg. what have i done to myself.) But I really don't feel like eating the right kinds of food and just want to eat sweets, sweets and sweets. Lately, I've been really out of mind. I tried to jump out of the window, go to the streets and cross even when the light is red, so much wanting to be in an accident, thinking that I'd rather feel physical pain than emotional pain. There was even a time when I was crossing the street going to school when a car almost hit me and.. I felt no fear of actua...