Living Life With No Regrets

About 2 weeks ago, I woke up and found out that one of my dogs happened to break off his leash and got away. I had to look all over for him and find for a temporary leash. While holding onto his broken leash, my dog suddenly tried to free himself, causing me to pull my arm and hit our screen door's lock causing my hand to have a wound. I didn't mind it at first, tied my dog with a new leash and went inside to wash my hands. Honestly, it stings so much! But I had to wash it off with soap, placed on a band aid and went on. However, my wound would still sting whenever it gets contact with anything, even water. I had a hard time shampooing my hair, or washing my hands, or touching things. After a few days, my wound became dry, however, it started itching, causing me to scratch it and peel off that brownish covering, and make it bleed again. I tried to resist scratching tho, but I just can't stand the itch.  And then I remember reading this quote: ccto I remember ...

Been months since I said I was moving on and that I am getting better but guess what? That doesn't seem to be the case. Every little thing comes back everytime I'm reminded of the thing that hurts me the most. I get too emotional at times, I get out of the mood and just not talk to anyone. You see, I am not someone who knows how to hide her emotions well and so you'll easily know my mood through my facial expressions. I thought, through time, things would change, but it seems like emotions are staying too long in my system that it's become too heavy to drag myself and move on. Seeing the thing/s that causes you pain almost everytime doesn't help. It's making it worse but you can't even do anything but to stand there and watch it all kill you for the nth time, feel your heart break into pieces all over again and pretend that you're okay with it and that it doesn't even bother you at all. And it pisses me off how people are too insensitive and incons...

Lately, I'v had so many realizations about life, about why things happened, and how things turned out this way and I think it is all for the better.  I remember how my mom always say, "God takes away the things that keep you from giving time to Him." and only now did I realize that.When it was so late. I can't blame God for doing so, because I know it was my fault. It really did took all my time from giving Him time that was supposed for Him and actually forgot about Him and focused on the thing that gave me "happiness" and "love." Suffering from the pain, I kept asking Him "Why?" Why does it always have to be me? Why am I the only one suffering, why am I the one always hurting? And all these were consequences of the things I did wrong. Oh, why don't I ever learn?!  Right now, I am trying my best to move forward as the new year approaches. Starting over will never be easily, but I know that I can do it for it is God who gives m...

In my 18 years of existence, I won't deny I had 'boyfriends' and must admit it took me years to get over them. I mean, it's not that east to forget someone you spent special moments with, gave you happiness and gave you that "Kilig" factor. And honestly, I am not good at that. I'm no good in forgetting people. I treasure people A LOT. YES. I had this guy whom I loved back in highschool. He wasn't the prefect type of guy, but I really do love him. He was like my "first love". How hard would it be to forget the first guy you loved, (aside from your dad and/or your brother of course) they guy you fell real hard for, the guy who gave you so much importance, the guy whom you made future plans with. You can't easily forget someone you shared a lot of things with, though some people can manage to easily forget about the past, still im having a hard time doing it. Since I was young, I swore to myself that I will only love 1 guy and he would b...