Living Life With No Regrets

Often times, I ask myself, "Am I happy with my life?" or "Am I content with everything  I have right now?" and the answers don't come easily.  At times, I would be happy, but then this happiness don't really last. One day I'll be content with what I have, the other day, I won't be. It seems like a big part is missing in my life and even if I don't want to admit it, I know the answer would always be the same. I've never been this empty. It seems like I've been hiding behind a mask every single day, faking all my smiles, my laughs, even my emotions just to get through the day and let people see that I am okay. Sometimes,  I feel like it's something that I must do, something that I needed to do for myself. I've been too open to the world that I felt like my life has been an open book to everyone leaving nothing for myself. I've been on a total emotional wreck for the past months and it seems like it's not ending so soon. I ...

Today, I was on my way, walking, to my bestfriend's house when I passed by this man with 2 kids. They have no home, and I was sure cause they were staying in a cart. It was raining so they were staying near the train station where there was enough shade for them. As I blogged the last time, I am currently in the stated of depression (or not anymore. Idrk), so basically, I don't care about anything else but myself and how I can actually move on and get all these sh*t together. I was carrying a big bag since I was from school, with food loaded in it. I saw them and passed by them. But then there was something that spoke to me to give one of the food inside my bag (my bag was filled with marshmallows since I was supposed to give it to my bestfriend's daughter). I actually hesitated but I can't help it, knowing that there was something pushing me to do it, so I stopped walking, opened my bag and got a pack of marshmallow, walked back and gave it to the eldest kid. I can s...