Low Profile..

Okay. So, today, we had our MedTech day in school and YES, there was a singing contest. I knew about the contest yesterday. ONLY YESTERDAY. So, I wasn't able to submit the requirements and I totally regret it! It was my only chance of performiiinnngg!! and I missed it. T.T *cries*


So, why Am I going to talk about "low profile"? Because that's me nowadays. I was never ever ever used to be someone unnoticed. I grew up to be a very famous person in school. I mean, everyone knows me. Whether because I was one of the smarted, or one of the talented. And ofcourse, I am a teacher's daughter in school, so everyone knows me. -___-

Just a small note to everyone:
I am NOT bragging about myself, okay? I am just sharing to you guys what and who I am. If you don't like the way I am writing this, it's okay. I don't expect everyone to have a positive response to my posts. :)

Okay. So, there. Every one knows me. Now that I am in college, it seems like I've kept a low profile. No on knows me except my friends and some professors. No one knows and recognize me. And it's something that really makes me think I am nothing now. When I stepped in to college, my whole life changed. Every little thing that I earned when I was in grade school and high school doesn't count now. Starting that day I entered college, I am a new born baby.

While I was in the auditorium earlier, I really wanted to go to and join the contest. But it was way too late for me. I watched all of them perform. Whether dancing or singing or performing as a band. And I envy all of them.

 First, I really wanted to join the dance troupe but I thought my body is too small to be dancing hiphop and stuff. And it will also take up my time practicing than studying. There's a lot of time management to do if I did. (Though I was able to join the Folk Dance since I can have scholarship through that.)
 Second, I love singing. When I was in highschool, I joined the singing contest we had, every year. And I did not stop until I got the title. Im short, I joined the same contest for 3 consecutive years. Yes. 3 years. Too long, right?
Third, I also love performing with a band. Since I was in grade 5, I was part of our school band. During my gradeschool years, I was a back-up singer, until I became the lead singer. When I went to High school, I became an instrumentalist. May it be the Piano, Guitar, Drums or Bass, I play them when we lack a member, though playing the keyboards while backing-up is my main job. We used to jam all the time.
That was basically my life. Doing all those art stuff. See? That's why I'm still deciding whether to shift my course or not.

Now, I can't even show myself to everyone. Unlike before when everyone knows me, now, I am just like a small snail, going around a big garden, unnoticed. That's now my life. Something that I'll have to learn to accept cause not everything in this world is permanent. That's one thing I realized.
I can't always have everything that was given to me since the beginning. I need to change and experience something more. Something that will make me a much better person than I was before.
This is life. And the only permanent thing in life is CHANGE. If you can't cope with the change, you won't survive.

Aja! One day, your time to shine will come. Just wait. :)