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My Biggest Depression



The University of Sto. Tomas or UST has always been my dream school. Though I also really wanted to enter the University of the Philippines or UP. Seeing my highschool friends and even old friends wearing UST uniforms, I admit, I really envy them. T.T 
Say what you want to say, think of what you want to think, but you can never erase that fact. I can't say I did well in the entrance exam cause the truth is, I did not meet the quota of my course. And that's a shame. Am I really just stupid or what? -___- But I did pass some courses, you know? It's just that, there were no enough slots for me to get in. And so, I had no choice.


I am really so depressed right now. Srsly. Why Am I not in UST right now? Instead, Im studying inside the walls of Centro Escolar University (CEU). (Though I do not regret entering the school or even hate it. Im really just wondering why I'm at the university I really never considered to enroll.) I have set my mind on entering UST already, but why did I have to change my plans? or should I say, Why can't my plans be? I always ask that question to myself. It's just that, things that I want and think that is the best for me, won't always happen the way I want them to and makes me sad for myself. 

Still, at the end of the day, I would be okay because of the words the Lord have spoken, 

"For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."
- Jeremiah 29:11

This scripture always gives me hope that GOD has a better plan for me and why I am not in UST right now. But I have promised myself, I will be entering UST when I study for my MedProper. So, Help Me, GOD! ♥
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